Would it be immature of me to say that life is too real? Yes, I think it would. But I can't help but feel like it gets thicker every day. Like, by my growing older, I have to walk into a pine forest where the trees grown taller and darker all the time. Maybe I need to brandish a sword of my own, to cut back some branches before walking farther. Right now, the love of music and literature is the only thing keeping me looking up into the tops of the trees to see patches of refracted light. I want to reach and grab them and hold them. And if I climb up to the treetops, logic tells me that the tree will sway, bend, and fall over. This is endless. I should never write about it again. Though it is full of great description.
Africa by Toto. Add that song the mix-tape to describe my life.
May 27, 2008
Can't stop the world.
I don't want to have to see to believe.
I want to jump before asking,
Plunge into a river without knowing how deep.
Too long have we lingered in the chambers of the sea.
We sleep in smiles and our fingers crossed
With naked feet.
All my demons are sleeping with me.
No one asks us, you lie next to me.
I want to jump before asking,
Plunge into a river without knowing how deep.
Too long have we lingered in the chambers of the sea.
We sleep in smiles and our fingers crossed
With naked feet.
All my demons are sleeping with me.
No one asks us, you lie next to me.
May 25, 2008
There goes Adam with the devil's head.
Life is a spider webbed woman cackling in her rocking chair. Which of us will understand her crazy logic enough to cackle back? Then we will sit back and enjoy the clouds roll by on hills. Then we can watch the waves rush in and retreat. And then we can speak to her face to face, questioning and correcting and creating from the soul.
It is my belief that we are meant to create. If we believe in God and that we are created within his image, then it makes perfect sense for us to mimic his first action towards us. It seems illogical to drift through life ooing and ahhing at other peoples originality. Make something new. Write what you've never read. Paint what no one has seen. Play what isn't heard.
It is my belief that we are meant to create. If we believe in God and that we are created within his image, then it makes perfect sense for us to mimic his first action towards us. It seems illogical to drift through life ooing and ahhing at other peoples originality. Make something new. Write what you've never read. Paint what no one has seen. Play what isn't heard.
Go there
http://jodieandrobinthevalley.blogspot.com/
This is why events unnerve me,
They find it all, a different story,
Notice whom for wheels are turning,
Turn again and turn towards this time,
All she asks the strength to hold me,
Then again the same old story,
World will travel, oh so quickly,
Travel first and lean towards this time.
This is why events unnerve me,
They find it all, a different story,
Notice whom for wheels are turning,
Turn again and turn towards this time,
All she asks the strength to hold me,
Then again the same old story,
World will travel, oh so quickly,
Travel first and lean towards this time.
May 24, 2008
May 22, 2008
Let's talk about Homosexuality.
First of all, I feel that approaching the matter as a "sin" and "wrongful act" is in fact a backwards approach. I have never felt right about preaching down upon people, and especially with such harsh words as some "christian" "radicals" have been using towards the gay community in America.
How do we correctly approach it? I'm not sure yet how to discuss it, but I've found a perfect description of the situation in my mind:
You see a male dog. He walks up to another male dog, mounts it, and has sex anally. It's gross. And you aren't thinking "This is indeed an evil dog. He is going to burn in hell for this. I want to kill this dog!". No, you're thinking. "He must be confused or mistaken. Aw geez, c'mon, get that out of there!"
As humans we are extremely defensive, and that is why this entire issue is out of proportion. We are overly accusative, and emotional about our arguments.
At this point, I see no chance of things "turning around" per say. If anything it slowly fades, or blows out of proportion. I'm voting the latter before the first.
Obviously this is a brief statement. I'm not about to try and write a book about homosexuality in America. It would be too long. All of the emotional problems and insecurities of the "gay" mind set are so complex.
I'm sorry if you think I'm wrong. I won't discuss this any farther.
How do we correctly approach it? I'm not sure yet how to discuss it, but I've found a perfect description of the situation in my mind:
You see a male dog. He walks up to another male dog, mounts it, and has sex anally. It's gross. And you aren't thinking "This is indeed an evil dog. He is going to burn in hell for this. I want to kill this dog!". No, you're thinking. "He must be confused or mistaken. Aw geez, c'mon, get that out of there!"
As humans we are extremely defensive, and that is why this entire issue is out of proportion. We are overly accusative, and emotional about our arguments.
At this point, I see no chance of things "turning around" per say. If anything it slowly fades, or blows out of proportion. I'm voting the latter before the first.
Obviously this is a brief statement. I'm not about to try and write a book about homosexuality in America. It would be too long. All of the emotional problems and insecurities of the "gay" mind set are so complex.
I'm sorry if you think I'm wrong. I won't discuss this any farther.
May 21, 2008
Sweet talk, like an angel.
When I have a shitty day, all that seems makes sense is listening to Spiritualized and staring at the sky.
-note: This works with all temperaments of weather. Best in storms or partly cloudy breezy days. Overcast, however, is a little depressing.
Finding remedies to problems is spiritual. Try not to make your remedies habitual, then you are dependent, and this will turn out badly. Find at least three of five solutions, I'd say.
Solutions:
-Listen to Spiritualized
-Deep Breaths
-Pounding Mattresses With Tennis Rackets
-Throwing Pillows at Empty Walls
-Running
-note: This works with all temperaments of weather. Best in storms or partly cloudy breezy days. Overcast, however, is a little depressing.
Finding remedies to problems is spiritual. Try not to make your remedies habitual, then you are dependent, and this will turn out badly. Find at least three of five solutions, I'd say.
Solutions:
-Listen to Spiritualized
-Deep Breaths
-Pounding Mattresses With Tennis Rackets
-Throwing Pillows at Empty Walls
-Running
May 19, 2008
Thank God for this interview:
You gotta love my good friend, Bill Lawrence; he never censors himself.
This was in TV Guide:
Scrubs Boss Blasts NBC, Previews "Serious" Changes
One of the many reasons I love Bill Lawrence is that the dude doesn't mince words. At a time when sound-bites have become as carefully crafted as a Martha Stewart petit four, Bill continues to tell it like it is. And on the heels of the official confirmation that Scrubs is headed to ABC for an 18-episode final season, he has a lot to tell. About the show's network-hop. About the beef he has with the suits at NBC. And about the somewhat radical changes in store for J.D. and Co.
Why'd it take so long to announce this thing?
Bill Lawrence: As I understand it, it was legally very important not to say anything officially until after the show had finished its run on NBC.
What led to the break-up with NBC?
Lawrence: When the strike ended, we told NBC that, even though we had another seven episodes mapped out, we could do it in three, and they just didn't have any interest. Total harsh buzz of not giving a s--t about a show that had been on the network for seven years and made them millions of dollars. And I'd be more bitter, except that it worked out good for us.
They didn't want to do any kind of wrap-up?
Lawrence: Not only did they not want to do any kind of wrap-up, but they took an episode that was supposed to air in the middle of the season — the fairytale episode — and marketed it as a series finale. Which was bulls--t. It was never supposed to be a series finale, much less a season finale, and I think it ended up getting judged kind of harshly because of it. If it was just a regular episode that people had tuned into I think they would've thought it was cool and funny.
I was under the impression NBC was willing to give you one episode to finish things off. No?
Lawrence: Well, here's the thing. When the strike ended, NBC said, "You can shoot an hour-long finale, but we'll only pay for half of it." They wanted [ABC Studios] to suck up all the expenses, and ABC said that was unacceptable. And it felt especially harsh because Scrubs was pulling in better [ratings] than 30 Rock and My Name is Earl — even though I love those two shows — and they were encouraged to do as many f--king episodes as they can after the strike. And after seven years, I ask for three episodes to wrap up the series and they say, "Tough s--t."
How do you go from three episodes on NBC to 18 on ABC?
Lawrence: It was weird, man. I was thinking we'd put these last six episodes on DVD, just so we can wrap the show up and be proud of it, but the head of ABC Studios, Mark Pedowitz, said, "Bill, if you can make the show a little cheaper, I can probably get us a full season on ABC." I didn't answer right away. The first thing I did was call the cast and the writers together and I said, "Look, if we're going to do this, we have to get back to something we creatively can all be excited about." Because, personally, I felt like this past season we were less than inspired comedically. So I said to them, "This means you guys working harder. It means having emotional stakes and losing all the goofy, broad stuff that I think is easy to write… " And everyone said they were on board for one more season.
Will the show still be a comedy?
Lawrence: It's still a comedy, but when we first did the show, it was a drama with elements of comedy and lots of stupid sound effects. But some of the strongest episodes in the second and third year had character comedy. You can still do things like kill Brendan Fraser and have the lady that loved musical theater die and then sing a song at the end. This became a very Simpsons-esque show with incredibly broad, unrealistic moments and fantasies that were both in reality and not in reality. When you've been writing this show for seven years, it's so easy to get into these patterns of writing the same jokes over and over: J.D. loves Turk, J.D. wants Dr. Cox's approval, Elliot's whiny and neurotic. But this year the stuff is really f--king good. I think our old stand-by fans are really going to dig these shows.
Is Ken Jenkins (Kelso) still a series regular?
Lawrence: He's still a series regular. The core of his participation this year is with Dr. Cox, who becomes Chief of Medicine. Now that Dr. Kelso is no longer a hospital bureaucrat, he is actually a decent human being and is Dr. Cox's confidant because Cox can't really talk to anyone else about how much that job sucks.
I heard you were looking to cast a new Chief.
Lawrence: That's just a piece of stunt casting that we're going to do for three episodes.
Talk to me about these budget cuts that ABC requested. Are we going to notice anything missing?
Lawrence: No. We have a smaller writing staff and we're filming the show in four-and-a-half days instead of five. And, you'll never notice it because we have so many actors on the show, but every cast member is taking two episodes off.
Even Zach?
Lawrence: Even Zach. Remember, I've done one or two episodes every year where J.D. isn't in the show except for one line, and some other character has the voiceover. It wasn't all that noticeable. It just looks like a cool creative choice.
This was in TV Guide:
Scrubs Boss Blasts NBC, Previews "Serious" Changes
One of the many reasons I love Bill Lawrence is that the dude doesn't mince words. At a time when sound-bites have become as carefully crafted as a Martha Stewart petit four, Bill continues to tell it like it is. And on the heels of the official confirmation that Scrubs is headed to ABC for an 18-episode final season, he has a lot to tell. About the show's network-hop. About the beef he has with the suits at NBC. And about the somewhat radical changes in store for J.D. and Co.
Why'd it take so long to announce this thing?
Bill Lawrence: As I understand it, it was legally very important not to say anything officially until after the show had finished its run on NBC.
What led to the break-up with NBC?
Lawrence: When the strike ended, we told NBC that, even though we had another seven episodes mapped out, we could do it in three, and they just didn't have any interest. Total harsh buzz of not giving a s--t about a show that had been on the network for seven years and made them millions of dollars. And I'd be more bitter, except that it worked out good for us.
They didn't want to do any kind of wrap-up?
Lawrence: Not only did they not want to do any kind of wrap-up, but they took an episode that was supposed to air in the middle of the season — the fairytale episode — and marketed it as a series finale. Which was bulls--t. It was never supposed to be a series finale, much less a season finale, and I think it ended up getting judged kind of harshly because of it. If it was just a regular episode that people had tuned into I think they would've thought it was cool and funny.
I was under the impression NBC was willing to give you one episode to finish things off. No?
Lawrence: Well, here's the thing. When the strike ended, NBC said, "You can shoot an hour-long finale, but we'll only pay for half of it." They wanted [ABC Studios] to suck up all the expenses, and ABC said that was unacceptable. And it felt especially harsh because Scrubs was pulling in better [ratings] than 30 Rock and My Name is Earl — even though I love those two shows — and they were encouraged to do as many f--king episodes as they can after the strike. And after seven years, I ask for three episodes to wrap up the series and they say, "Tough s--t."
How do you go from three episodes on NBC to 18 on ABC?
Lawrence: It was weird, man. I was thinking we'd put these last six episodes on DVD, just so we can wrap the show up and be proud of it, but the head of ABC Studios, Mark Pedowitz, said, "Bill, if you can make the show a little cheaper, I can probably get us a full season on ABC." I didn't answer right away. The first thing I did was call the cast and the writers together and I said, "Look, if we're going to do this, we have to get back to something we creatively can all be excited about." Because, personally, I felt like this past season we were less than inspired comedically. So I said to them, "This means you guys working harder. It means having emotional stakes and losing all the goofy, broad stuff that I think is easy to write… " And everyone said they were on board for one more season.
Will the show still be a comedy?
Lawrence: It's still a comedy, but when we first did the show, it was a drama with elements of comedy and lots of stupid sound effects. But some of the strongest episodes in the second and third year had character comedy. You can still do things like kill Brendan Fraser and have the lady that loved musical theater die and then sing a song at the end. This became a very Simpsons-esque show with incredibly broad, unrealistic moments and fantasies that were both in reality and not in reality. When you've been writing this show for seven years, it's so easy to get into these patterns of writing the same jokes over and over: J.D. loves Turk, J.D. wants Dr. Cox's approval, Elliot's whiny and neurotic. But this year the stuff is really f--king good. I think our old stand-by fans are really going to dig these shows.
Is Ken Jenkins (Kelso) still a series regular?
Lawrence: He's still a series regular. The core of his participation this year is with Dr. Cox, who becomes Chief of Medicine. Now that Dr. Kelso is no longer a hospital bureaucrat, he is actually a decent human being and is Dr. Cox's confidant because Cox can't really talk to anyone else about how much that job sucks.
I heard you were looking to cast a new Chief.
Lawrence: That's just a piece of stunt casting that we're going to do for three episodes.
Talk to me about these budget cuts that ABC requested. Are we going to notice anything missing?
Lawrence: No. We have a smaller writing staff and we're filming the show in four-and-a-half days instead of five. And, you'll never notice it because we have so many actors on the show, but every cast member is taking two episodes off.
Even Zach?
Lawrence: Even Zach. Remember, I've done one or two episodes every year where J.D. isn't in the show except for one line, and some other character has the voiceover. It wasn't all that noticeable. It just looks like a cool creative choice.
May 18, 2008
The video's only purpose is the audio portion of my post. Read the lyrics with it.
All the time we spent in bed
Counting miles before we said
Fall in love and fall apart
Things will end before they start
Sleeping on Lake Michigan
Factories and marching bands
Lose our clothes in summertime
Lose ourselves to lose our minds
In the summer heat I might...
Counting miles before we said
Fall in love and fall apart
Things will end before they start
Sleeping on Lake Michigan
Factories and marching bands
Lose our clothes in summertime
Lose ourselves to lose our minds
In the summer heat I might...
moneySUCHADRAG
Money is nice. It is a cushion that often deflates. And for some strange reason when it's fully inflated (i guess i'm reffering to this cushion as an air cushion) I do my very best to push and poke at the cushion and deflating it more and then i have to patch it, it's a mess! Money is a mashious mess. (i think i just created a new word.)
May 15, 2008
May 14, 2008
May 12, 2008
Crass is not the right word, but it's the first word that comes to mind.
Everything I know is wrong
Everything I do it just comes undone
And everything is torn apart
Thats the hardest part
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The Hardest Part by Coldplay was the song that I walked to at graduation. I was the one who suggested it because I thought the lyrics fitting.
Life is such a mess. I feel like a finger painting. If that makes any sense? Like, that puke yellow green blue red finger painting every child makes. Make sense with a visualization.
Drab isn't the right word, but it's the first word that comes to mind.
Everything I do it just comes undone
And everything is torn apart
Thats the hardest part
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The Hardest Part by Coldplay was the song that I walked to at graduation. I was the one who suggested it because I thought the lyrics fitting.
Life is such a mess. I feel like a finger painting. If that makes any sense? Like, that puke yellow green blue red finger painting every child makes. Make sense with a visualization.
Drab isn't the right word, but it's the first word that comes to mind.
Thank you Zach Braff.
Dear friends,
Many of you have been understandably confused by the Fairy Tale episode of Scrubs serving as the series finale. It was not. I was not allowed to say it until today, but Scrubs will be moving to ABC for its final season. We are currently filming the 8th and final season. The true finale of the show will air on ABC in the fall. NBC merely promoted the Fairy Tale episode as the finale, as it was the last episode they owned.
Also, several of you were very confused by the fact that Dr. Kelso and Laverne were still working at the hospital in the Fairy Tale episode. Because of the writer's strike, the last remaining episodes for NBC were aired out of order. This is why Dr. Kelso was still chief of medicine. That was not Laverne however, for those of you who have been following closely; it was a new nurse "Shirley" who no one thinks looks anything like Laverne except for JD.
Hope this clears some things up.
peace and love,
zb
Many of you have been understandably confused by the Fairy Tale episode of Scrubs serving as the series finale. It was not. I was not allowed to say it until today, but Scrubs will be moving to ABC for its final season. We are currently filming the 8th and final season. The true finale of the show will air on ABC in the fall. NBC merely promoted the Fairy Tale episode as the finale, as it was the last episode they owned.
Also, several of you were very confused by the fact that Dr. Kelso and Laverne were still working at the hospital in the Fairy Tale episode. Because of the writer's strike, the last remaining episodes for NBC were aired out of order. This is why Dr. Kelso was still chief of medicine. That was not Laverne however, for those of you who have been following closely; it was a new nurse "Shirley" who no one thinks looks anything like Laverne except for JD.
Hope this clears some things up.
peace and love,
zb
May 11, 2008
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Flaming June
"When you sit with a nice girl for two hours, it seems like two minutes. When you sit on a hot stove for two minutes, it seems like two hours that's relativity." -- Albert Einstein
May 2, 2008
Oh, my, my. Oh hell yes.
Well, if you're travelin' in the north country fair,
Where the winds hit heavy on the borderline,
Remember me to one who lives there.
She once was a true love of mine.
Well, if you go when the snowflakes storm,
When the rivers freeze and summer ends,
Please see if she's wearing a coat so warm,
To keep her from the howlin' winds.
Please see for me if her hair hangs long,
If it rolls and flows all down her breast.
Please see for me if her hair hangs long,
That's the way I remember her best.
I'm a-wonderin' if she remembers me at all.
Many times I've often prayed
In the darkness of my night,
In the brightness of my day.
So if you're travelin' in the north country fair,
Where the winds hit heavy on the borderline,
Remember me to one who lives there.
She once was a true love of mine.
Where the winds hit heavy on the borderline,
Remember me to one who lives there.
She once was a true love of mine.
Well, if you go when the snowflakes storm,
When the rivers freeze and summer ends,
Please see if she's wearing a coat so warm,
To keep her from the howlin' winds.
Please see for me if her hair hangs long,
If it rolls and flows all down her breast.
Please see for me if her hair hangs long,
That's the way I remember her best.
I'm a-wonderin' if she remembers me at all.
Many times I've often prayed
In the darkness of my night,
In the brightness of my day.
So if you're travelin' in the north country fair,
Where the winds hit heavy on the borderline,
Remember me to one who lives there.
She once was a true love of mine.
May 1, 2008
If you love me, won't you let me know.
The new Coldplay song is going over and over and over in my head. Brilliant.
When I mow the lawn I smell cut grass, and am reminded of the times that I used to cut the grass to earn new Star Wars figures, or five dollars. I always chose the toys.
The weather is phenomenal out. Too bad I've had to work constantly. I'm looking forward to a monster storm tomorrow but I'll be working through that as well.
I want to feel the floor shake. Knock me to the floor.
When I mow the lawn I smell cut grass, and am reminded of the times that I used to cut the grass to earn new Star Wars figures, or five dollars. I always chose the toys.
The weather is phenomenal out. Too bad I've had to work constantly. I'm looking forward to a monster storm tomorrow but I'll be working through that as well.
I want to feel the floor shake. Knock me to the floor.
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